Here is a picture of the dinner we had at our house which turned out to be the last one we will all have together on this trip! It has been an emotional week. The last of everything….. The last staff meeting, the last ride on the bus, the last time our arms hold one of the kids or hug one of the staff. Goodbyes are never easy for me and there are lots of tears – even though I am planning on coming back here very soon, God willing, it seems like something very big has ended and something very new is beginning! I desire more than anything to follow my Lord Jesus Christ and I am so happy that he led me here to see Him and experience Him in new and dramatic ways. From cleaning bathrooms for visiting mission groups at the camp to being on stage in a life changing drama I have enjoyed every second of being here and the ways I have seen the Lord work in my life and in the lives of others.
I am a lot more free than when I first arrived- free to laugh, free to cry, free to be who God created me to be – not afraid to love or to share my most intimate thoughts for fear of being rejected or laughed at. But most of all free to be God’s child allowing Him to make the decisions and just yielding to His will for my life! It’s been a long time since I have been a child. And I am enjoying becoming one again only this time as God’s beloved child. A child that He longs to comfort, encourage, support and provide for. A child that He has a perfect plan all layed out for. All I have to do is say yes…… and that isn’t hard for me anymore!
So where do I go from here? I only need to concern myself with today. God tells us that in his word.
Matthew 6:25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? 28“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
I choose to live in today and embrace all that God has for me right now, this very second, and if by His grace He should allow me another day I know He has it all layed out for me. I can wake up and trust Him to safely guide me through whatever He has planned!